The Death of the Dregs
def: a small amount of residue
sick
Posted by b on 3:25 PM
Committing something to paper takes too much effort. Thinking of a thought of a combination of words that makes sense is too difficult. I'm tired of thinking. I'm tired of feeling like THIS. So what if I won't be happy soon? It's all been downhill up until now. Even though, even now, going uphill feels like going down.
I'm really, just honestly, truthfully, insufficient.
Happiness is three credit cards and thousands of dollars away.
Working towards a dream is way better than working towards nothing at all. In fact, the dream is the only motivation. Why are things so clear and still so unknowable? The fragmentation of these ideas epitomize the existential nature of my mind's eye.
I'm stupider than anyone I know.
Why can I not be successful?
Is complete and utter happiness, even for a brief moment, an irrationality? Is it impossible? What is happiness anyways? Contentness? Satisfaction? A smile? Maybe all of those? Deeper into the deconstruction of happiness a student may find that happiness consists much more of gratitude and deals with a much deeper and universal issue of overall capacity for good. To do good. To receive good. To feel good. Is the good feeling fleeting? Or is it an everlasting feeling, something unshakable? It matters significantly, as these are two separate types of happiness. Happiness of the fleeting variety is nice, usually intense, but not always sustaining. Some what like a burst of caffeine in your blood stream, these fleeting feelings are good for quick jolts. But concrete happiness, those unshakable feelings associated with family and friends, this type of happiness can infect the soul, permeate the subconcious and leave the victim with a sustained overall sense of well-being.
So is it advisable to seek these temporary pleasures? Or delight in the solid foundations of happiness? A happy medium is certainly advised, however many lack either. Faced with a situation in which happiness is required to inspire, temporary delights of happiness can certainly provide. However, in situations in which a strong instution needs to be constructed, countries need to be founded, happiness can be found through religion, the family or unmovable relationships with others.
Funny how the bonds that help fuse us together can be those which tear us the most apart. The family, insulted by each other, instigated horrible bloody feuds which consume thousands of lives. Religious "martyrs" give their lives in the names of their Gods, taking with them innocent non-believers who did not ask for a fight. Wars fought in the name of God, name-sake or country. Millions upon millions suffering, fighting for one thing. Happiness.
But how can we provide it? A logical next-step. It seems a conundrum, that the desire for happiness is that which destroys it. The illogical nature of greed consumes the seeker and their soul. Happiness will always be unattainable to those who strive to attain it. This is due to the fact that happiness is relative. One man is made happy by pain, while another would be happy to be free of it. Even in suffering there remains an element of satisfaction, of happiness. Be that denied, the creation of a happy population becomes irrelevant. Be that as it may, how can happiness be created? In a situation in which greed and sadness have all but taken control of the society, how does happiness return?
The answer is much simpler than it seems. No God, no biological equivalent and no policy will ever bring happiness. It is up to the end-user, the consumer. Changing the relative definition of happiness will significantly increase happiness in a society. If a civilization's idea of happiness can be homogonized and identified, happiness can be manipulated as easily as flowing water. The unattainable, can now be, attained.
I'm really, just honestly, truthfully, insufficient.
Happiness is three credit cards and thousands of dollars away.
Working towards a dream is way better than working towards nothing at all. In fact, the dream is the only motivation. Why are things so clear and still so unknowable? The fragmentation of these ideas epitomize the existential nature of my mind's eye.
I'm stupider than anyone I know.
Why can I not be successful?
Is complete and utter happiness, even for a brief moment, an irrationality? Is it impossible? What is happiness anyways? Contentness? Satisfaction? A smile? Maybe all of those? Deeper into the deconstruction of happiness a student may find that happiness consists much more of gratitude and deals with a much deeper and universal issue of overall capacity for good. To do good. To receive good. To feel good. Is the good feeling fleeting? Or is it an everlasting feeling, something unshakable? It matters significantly, as these are two separate types of happiness. Happiness of the fleeting variety is nice, usually intense, but not always sustaining. Some what like a burst of caffeine in your blood stream, these fleeting feelings are good for quick jolts. But concrete happiness, those unshakable feelings associated with family and friends, this type of happiness can infect the soul, permeate the subconcious and leave the victim with a sustained overall sense of well-being.
So is it advisable to seek these temporary pleasures? Or delight in the solid foundations of happiness? A happy medium is certainly advised, however many lack either. Faced with a situation in which happiness is required to inspire, temporary delights of happiness can certainly provide. However, in situations in which a strong instution needs to be constructed, countries need to be founded, happiness can be found through religion, the family or unmovable relationships with others.
Funny how the bonds that help fuse us together can be those which tear us the most apart. The family, insulted by each other, instigated horrible bloody feuds which consume thousands of lives. Religious "martyrs" give their lives in the names of their Gods, taking with them innocent non-believers who did not ask for a fight. Wars fought in the name of God, name-sake or country. Millions upon millions suffering, fighting for one thing. Happiness.
But how can we provide it? A logical next-step. It seems a conundrum, that the desire for happiness is that which destroys it. The illogical nature of greed consumes the seeker and their soul. Happiness will always be unattainable to those who strive to attain it. This is due to the fact that happiness is relative. One man is made happy by pain, while another would be happy to be free of it. Even in suffering there remains an element of satisfaction, of happiness. Be that denied, the creation of a happy population becomes irrelevant. Be that as it may, how can happiness be created? In a situation in which greed and sadness have all but taken control of the society, how does happiness return?
The answer is much simpler than it seems. No God, no biological equivalent and no policy will ever bring happiness. It is up to the end-user, the consumer. Changing the relative definition of happiness will significantly increase happiness in a society. If a civilization's idea of happiness can be homogonized and identified, happiness can be manipulated as easily as flowing water. The unattainable, can now be, attained.